A little reflection on human energy and the pursuit of passion.
Since I started taking my own media channel seriously around November last year, I found that I really enjoy it.
For example, I can spend hours editing videos without feeling tired, and I enjoy the sense of achievement that comes from sharing my work and benefiting others.
Deep down, I feel like I am passionate about doing media work, or rather, I have experienced the power of passion - the ability to voluntarily give without feeling tired.
So, when I had the idea of changing jobs in March this year, I decided that I must pursue a job that I love.
But as I embarked on this journey to find my passion, I found myself feeling lost.
There was a lot of internal struggle about what exactly my passion is and what my expertise is.
I found that I could list many things, such as being good at expressing myself and being a good teacher.
But when it came to matching these qualities with suitable job positions, I couldn't find a job that aligned with my personality, and I was always unwilling to settle.
This constant internal struggle made me realize that something was off with my "energy".
The first time I heard about "energy" was on a podcast, I can't remember the name, but the host was called "Dan Dan".
She and her friend were discussing the importance of doing work that gives you high energy, rather than just doing what seems right.
This statement struck a chord with me, but at the time, I still believed that high-energy work was synonymous with "my passion".
As I continued to search for jobs, certain compromises that people my age would make continued to distract me, such as the "salary".
When I thought about taking high-paying jobs that would exhaust me, I hesitated. And if I considered low-paying but easy jobs, I hesitated as well.
So, in the end, when I was completely exhausted, I had a conversation with myself and realized that in the pursuit of personal development, it is not only important to seek external validation but also to listen to our inner desires.
Internal stability can inspire better external output.
The salary is not the most important criterion for measuring the quality of a job. In this model, other parameters should be taken into account, such as the work environment, the quality of colleagues, the professionalism of the boss/team, growth opportunities, work-life balance, etc.
Maintaining high energy, stabilizing life, and having more time to think, read, exercise, share, and spend time with loved ones.
These actions may not lead to immediate progress, but they give me peace of mind and I believe they will help me find my passion and expertise in the future.